Not much to actually update on but here goes.
$2600 left on the car.
Still hate Trump.
Still a loyal part of Planet Extraordinary Journey of a Black Nerd
Still trying to learn things on my own.
Still working my ass off washing those dishes.
But man, $2,600 left.
The way I calculated it, that’s three months from now, roughly if I can keep putting money into it like I’ve been doing.
I’ve been going slowly on paying off the car because Spud’s is the only job I got and I’m getting enough hours there where job hunting isn’t really in the picture at the moment.
Los Angeles is 3 hours away and I’m compelled to take that trip but I’ve heard about the traffic there and that 3 can turn to like five and that’s not including the fact that I don’t know my way around so it’s not like I can just park anywhere and start touring. I’ve been in this state long enough to hear the whole “you can’t park here” speech and the last thing I need is someone calling the cops on me in LA talking about a “parking permit” or some sh-t like that.
I’ve been slacking on working out but now I know that I’m not as fat as I thought I was. I initially thought I was 5’8 1/2″ 185 lbs but it turns out I’m just 5’6″, 180 lbs. I’m guessing the work boots add more to me than they should.
I’m trying not to rely on machines to work out and do body weight stuff instead, so far, I’m just trying to stretch out my limits. As far as exercise goes, I’m not aiming to look ripped anymore, I just wanna be able to lift a car and knock out a baddie if need be.
I don’t know if I mentioned this or not but I’ve been trying to dive into the “learning” aspect of the internet so I got an account with Cybrary and am redoing Lynda courses to add more “certifications” to my Linkedin to make myself more hire-able. Getting the certs won’t be the hard part through Lynda since it’s mostly just watch the tutorials and do the same thing.
My ADD got me not wanting to stick to one thing, though, I’m trying to creative write through Goodreads and use Lynda to get back on trying to edit films and stuff to try to make movies and stuff again.
I used to be hardcore into trying to make my own movies before I lost confidence in myself after seeing other people do better than me at it but I’m trying to get over it because I’m like “Just because I’m not where I want to be now doesn’t mean I won’t be just because they’re there first”. It’s a hard mantra to recite but it helps for the most part.
I realize now that I may not become internet viral as quickly as I want to (or for the right reason) so I’m just pushing on with the actual hard work aspect of things.
Every day is slow progress, though.
Working, Learning, Improving.
Not much of an update but I’m getting better.
Hanging out with my friends, Cora and Grace, Kevyn, Richard…things like that.
Finally getting over the death of my co-worker, C.O. from about a year ago, too so that helps.
Things are slowly looking up and I realize now that dwelling on the negative don’t help because whether I focus on it or not, the negative will always happen but it’s how I interact with it and at some point, I thought that I was just accepting that bad things happen when I’m actually embracing it and welcoming it to get even worse.
The logic is to simply accept that bad things are possible of happening AS WELL as good things, and not simply that bad things happen and good things don’t.
Hm, that’s probably a better mantra.
“Good things happen too”